Over the years, the lines between asleep and awake have been blurred.
I don’t dream, so sleep provides an escape, however fleeting.
Yet in darkness I find my eyes fixed upon my ceiling, unsleeping.
Despite my restless nights, I’ve always been an early bird.
My watch says it’s 4 am. At my feet, my cat stirred.
He meows and purrs in greeting.
I leave my bed and pet behind, despite their pleading.
Even though slipping back into sleep would be much preferred,
I enjoy the silence as I splash water on my face.
Everyone else is asleep, and much more at peace than I’ve ever been.
I tie my shoes and step outside– it’s as if my mind and body separate:
My breathing falls in time with my pace
In, out, left, right, keeping myself in constant motion
Because if I rest my body, my mind tends to ruminate.
As my sentence here draws to a close,
I realize I should’ve done more in my time
So please, let me be your canary in a coal mine.
If you heed no other words of my writing, listen to what I have to propose:
High school definitely has its highs and lows,
Your experience may not always be sublime
But take advantage of the resources you’ve been given in the meantime
And seize all chances to oppose.
Even if your only escape is daydreaming of a place far far away,
Keep your head down, stay humble, do the work, and don’t be a blowhard.
Though sometimes your days will seem cold and grey,
Live your life to the fullest and hold yourself in high regard.
After all, you know what they say:
“Live free or die hard.”